Temptations or Should I say Self Discipline

During the 3 day 2 night chalet that was organised by Hao Zhi, so many things happen.Which test my discipline as a Christian.Starting, vulgarities it is my 3rd language after English and Chinese.I am so used to saying vulgarities that I used it every time when I'm being the real me.Our mouth speaks life and death.It is also written in the bible that our mouth is very powerful.I can't control my mouth when I'm with my friends compared to my church friends.Although I am angry with them,I will not have the urge to say vulgarities that is when I realized that it was the situation that I'm in that changed me but I do not have the discipline to change myself to be what I am when I'm with my normal friends.Another thing smoking,I dare to say,I smoke before,it is nothing boastful!I smoke as I wanted to try or 'curious' how does it feel like,but I did not get addicted though which I find that it was a good thing compared to a friend of mine who say he quit smoking but during the chalet he saw the rest of our friends smoking and he have that urge to smoke again.He always said that he quit smoking and will not touch it but during the chalet he gave in and it is obvious that he did not even have a sense of self discipline.He began to beg around for one puff,I know this is wrong but I told him that firstly,if you want to smoke go buy yourself or buy one stick don't keep going around begging for one puff.Second option,that is don't smoke and have self control in the end he chose the first option and he bought half a pack of cigarettes from my friend.Gambling,it was very fun and exciting and satisfying every time you won a game or getting a good hand.It started to be wrong when money is involved,Yes the definition of Gamble is to stake on something etc or taking a risk.The stake is too high and risky.You will get addicted to it very easily if you do not pull yourself out of it very fast enough,you will be completely taken control by the 'Gamble'. That's how people get addicted to it cause the game always gave hopes and slowly entice your minds into it and that is when you cant differentiate whether you are playing for fun or just plain sake of getting easy money.Starting you may get a lot of good hands but after awhile lady luck does not seems to be on your side and that is where you start to lose and you are trying to make a comeback so the more you wanted and feel like playing a game to recoup your losses.Problem is that you will not win every time and there is also not a very high chance to win after playing for so long.Everything became wrong when your motive is wrong.if your motive is not for fun and to recoup your money that you lose,you will have to pull yourself out of it or else you will drop into an abyss in 10 or 20 years time.I'm not saying that they are a bad influence and they are wrong,just that they find doing this kind of things are okay and is not so serious.But as Christians doing this kind of things are over the extend of what we should be.I find that if you can't control yourself,first thing is to seek help or account to someone about your doubts and ask them whether it is the right thing,most of the time before we do something wrong,if we have a confirmation from someone that is older than us or someone that we trust said that is wrong we will immediately stop what we are doing and not even attempt to try it.You may look weak in front of your friends but when you see God he will remember what you did choosing him over your friends.The sacrifices you made and ridicule will not be in vain :D

True Love .....

*Coughs,Coughs* what is true love ?? This was the question that is ringing in my head for the past few days or even weeks.I have so many friends that are in a relationships.So many of them.They always said that the other party is always their true love and they will be their last,but after a few weeks,months they just broke up and to make matters worse,they "ignored" each other literally ignored the other party treating them like they don't even exists and become complete stranger.I sometimes wondered where would I find my true love too but after seeing the relationship that my friends have made me take a step back and think once again what is actually true love,it is just saying or is it just a confirmation to the other party so that they will be secured and after having fun with he/her then just act as complete stranger once again.A lot of question always comes into my mind when I talk about love and relationship etc., why can't couples that were used to be together become friends again like the time before they were in a relationship,that kind of relationship may be different but yet they are also memories and priceless.In a relationship it takes two hands to clap, how much effort one party puts in will never win two party even if they did not put so much effort compared to one party this is what I have observed from every broken relationship.Another thing is ,both parties always claim that they put in the effort but the question is how much do you put in,yes you may have more efforts compared to the one party but how much did you put in ? That is another story,I find that if I want to have a relationship, I would really want to a stable one. The first and the last, but that is almost impossible I think,the generation that Im living in has too many temptation but I think that I still can control myself.What I want to say to those couples out there is that you can have a relationship easily but it takes time and the commitment and the sense of responsibility to carry on that spark or relationship going.Don't take both parties for granted doesn't mean that the other party did not put in effort,me too don't have to put in the effort it does not work that way.If that was the case why bother starting a relationship and inflicting pain to one another.If you are afraid to take the first step and you really like the party a lot, just confess to him/her boldly at least you give a shot better than waiting till the 4 seasons change .. So I wish that all those in relationship last long and stay blissful :D